hello there. i'm rachel. i like flowers & teapots & flowers in teapots (or disused alcohol bottles) & all manner of other vaguely decorative knick-knacks. & ponies more than is sensible. i'm 24, which is far older than i feel. i'm currently located in the east london outskirts. this here is my blog. it's somewhat of an outlet for loneliness and depression; when i feel like it i update, but many days i don't. it is a collection of photos, art, inspiration, musings, curiosities, anonymous letters, poems & anything that helps me feel a little happier, whatever sort of day it is. i hope you find something here that helps you feel a little happier, too.
My therapist: Have you ever had a migraine? It's awful. The pain is excruciating. It hurts it breath. It hurts to talk. Light hurts. Everything hurts. But if you've never had a migraine you have no idea what the pain is like.
That's what it's like for people without depression. They may get headaches like a person gets sad, but unless you've had a migraine you could never know what it's truly like. Just like depression.
does anyone else do DBT?
i think it’s the best therapy i’ve ever done, but i also feel really fed up & stuck with it at the moment.
a few months or so ago & i was quite literally in love with it, & now i’ve come to a place where i’m just noticing more & more of the judgements i have about myself but feeling very trapped & frustrated.
there is so much more to me as a person than whether or not i can engage with DBT in the precise way that marsha linehan intended, but i’m not seeing it. i’m feeling quite distant from myself, &/or who i once was.
this is turning into a self-pitying ramble instead of the exchange of DBT experiences i was hoping to initiate.
(yes i know - judgements judgements judgements).
in summary, would love to hear other people’s experiences of DBT, & if you have any stories about overcoming feeling very frustrated & a little disillusioned, even better!